I think there is this misconception out there in the world that we start out with a whole heart....I don't buy it.
It goes against what everyone has ever said to me about being in love....this idea that two become one.
So maybe its not that two become one, but rather that we are never whole to begin with.
And ever so occassionally we can meet that rare bird who can mend us with a bit of string.
And maybe those moments are fleeting.
And maybe that's why it hurts so bad when we separate from people- even when they are no good for us.
Because ultimately each of us walks around with half a heart, waiting to be mended.

An ancestor of mine once said, "company are like fish, both stink after three days."

By and By Lord By and By

Bible group. Being pregnant (or not). Being sad. Being fed up. Carpooling. Frites at Rudy's. Cold beers. Being tired. So completely tired. Being ready. This is how my life feels. Short sentences crammed together. Nothing to look forward to because by the time you start reading you are already finished. I need a project I can really sink my teeth into. A project I can get get connected to the community with, the community in which I live. I will begin that project.

Today.

Friday March 26th 2010.

Get Ready. This is not a drill.